Wednesday, May 10, 2006

like HELLO! yay the tear/blood/pain-inducing CTs are over!! well, sort of. math is headache-inducing. and chem is bad for my nerves. sigh jaycelyn should stop being so stressed! you know what, i was just gonna talk about how i think i fared, but i decided to just totally forget abbourrit. NO REGRETS! BIO BUZZ OFF! PHU*K PHYSICS! SCREW ASS ASS! ERADICATE ENGLISH!!! haha makes no sense.

haha i just imagined singh saying "oh nonono.. dont phunk with physics..." eergh like why the heaven am i being so weird. yeah so anyway i think today was fun! after english bird, kok, yingching, yijie, shihui and i went to watch a movie! oh we went to eat at gelare first before going to watch movie. haha i spent the time there choking and turning red and getting fat and listening to kok talk crap about my and shihui's apparent identity crisis. no lor. what identity swap. haha pukes i aint no cockroach (: ha then after the fattening experience (YES IM ANO =P), we went to drink bubbletea, which is really not bad, just that it made me wanna pee during the movie. which is really quite bad. so overall, it was average. hahahah.

i wanted to watch M:I3! but since bird and shihui had watched it already, everyone decided to watch when a stranger calls. DUNNO WHO KEPT INSISTING IT WAS A THRILLER! then i was like its a HORROR FILM LA. then nobody believe. ha fine. then in the end everyone ended up with sweaty palms, cowering behind popcorn boxes. woohoo.. (: the POWER of sound effects. seriously, there were a lot of anti-climax moments until the end part which got really scary. but luckily no really really gory scenes otherwise i cannot tahan. haha yijie was so funny she kept closing her eyes. >< eeks i dont wanna think about horror films already later get nightmares ): HAPPY THOUGHTS HAPPY THOUGHTS...

okay i've thought of something to think about.. stephen. you may or may not know who stephen is, but even if you've guessed, dont ask. i just want to vent. okay the truth is, im broken. hell, i feel like a part of me has gone. yes it's cliched. but most of the time, cliches are what make the most sense. yes i've done everything to try and get over it. i really have. i've tried bitching, being a bitch, forgetting, improving my looks, exercising, studying (a lot), starving, bingeing, fantasizing, everything. just to fill in that gaping hole in my spirit. ive tried everything. unfortunately, i think that i have probably been permanently affected. how permanently? maybe it'll wear off soon. maybe it'll never wear off. as long as stephen still exists, i cant forget. oh stephen, how ive thought about it. oh stephen, you dont know how much i think about it. oh stephen i still think about it. oh stephen oh stephen, i am thinking about it, and it just wont fucking leave my mind. oh stephen, you're my angel. oh stephen, i want to be your angel. oh stephen oh stephen, i hope you fly. oh stephen, i hope you soar. spread your wings stephen.. if you dont have wings, build them. oh stephen i want to build your wings... stephen i was never infatuated. too strong for too long, now i cant be without you baby. thats what it was. if anything can break me, it's you.

and you shattered me.

oh stephen, baby.
if we cant soar together, then i can only hope that you soar high and far
and that one of us catches up with the other
one day.

GV whitewave~
ex-tns, rgs
270891
VIRGO
goat
1c 2c 3c 4c 5g 6h 106 206 304




credits: I, II


Wishlist/Misc Links TAG Entries

Get awesome blog templates like this one from BlogSkins.comGet awesome blog templates like this one from BlogSkins.com